our poor baby Slade

Well yesterday Slade started a fever again just thinking he has the cold that the rest of us have i didn't make a big deal out of it and gave him some cold medicine and Tylenol. Well Last night i went into his room and he was burning up so i take him into our bedroom and we decide that we are going to take him to the ER.. On the way to the ER slade had another seizure. Honestly what do you do while your trying to be as safe as possible but get there as quick as i can.. Do i pull over and hold him or just rush? Well i turned on the flashers and hauled ASS! This is his 2nd seizure in 2 weeks. I was so scared I didn't witness his first seizure and was so thankful for that but i was there for this one and was freaking out. Well the Dr looked into Slades ears and he just said "umm just a minute" then i knew something was wrong. here came another nurse, Dr, another nurse? I asked "what is going on?" The Dr said "these are the worst ear infections we have ever seen!" I was mortified oh great what a horrible mother I am not even knowing my poor baby has ear infections that bad. GREAT!!!!! Well they give him a shot of antibiotic and get us set up with an appt with Dr catten. We went this morning to Dr Catten and he said the same thing "Oh wow, these are horrible!" so needless to say we are scheduled for surgery on Thursday morning. I am so scared I know it will be good for him to FINALLY be able to hear and not be sick for once. He is just my little tiny baby i am looking at what could happen. I am an emotional wreck not because I'm to scared more nervous than anything. I always told myself "i want to be the best mom i can be," and I kinda feel like a failure to my children. They are always sick and i don't know if its something i am doing wrong or what. I try and wash there hands, I sanitize the carts, I bundle them up.
ok ok there was my little vent session I'm better now. i know I am trying my hardest and all we can do is pray that these tubes work for my little man and his seizures to stop.

horrible blogger

Im sorry all my blogger followers i have to apologize for being such a slacker lately. We have had alot on our plates Slade has been super sick and actually had a seizure on new years eve. Scariest night of our lives, he is doing amazing now though. We just went through a move and trying to get that all organized has been pretty hectic so here is our little tiny update i promise Christmas and other pics are coming!!